Dear friends, never take revenge. Leave that to the righteous anger of God. For the Scriptures say, “I will take revenge; I will pay them back,” says the LORD. – Romans 12:19 (NLT)
At times, do you find your thoughts stuck in a replay mode over an offense? Perhaps someone has wronged you and you’re afraid that if you let your guard down enough to forgive the offense, you’ll subject yourself to the vulnerability of being hurt all over again. Better yet, perhaps you’re fixated on it because you want them to pay immensely for what they’ve done. In that, your mind justifies the repetitive thoughts because as you replay the offense, you think of a craftier way to make them pay. In your mind’s eye, you actually have power over them at the moment.
Nevertheless, even though you feel empowered for a moment, it only offers a false sense of retribution because it is technically not yours to attain. Despite the fact that you made them pay in your mind’s eye, in order to reach the empowerment high again, you’ll need to come up with a new and more painful way of getting back at them. It merely represents an insatiable appetite that can’t be quenched.
Only the Lord can customize the retaliation tactic. He and only he knows exactly what it will take to make that person recognize the error of their ways. You, on the other hand, do have a part in the process but it’s not to render a collection notice for the offense. Your part is to issue a warrant to your thoughts and give it a life sentence without parole.
Lord, help me to surrender my pain at the foot of the cross. I trade in the painful memories for a complete sense of peace and healing that only You can give.